[ That stretched out moment of silence is excruciating — as is Takiishi's expression. He may not be upset, but the surprise and ultimate dismissal of the topic — from Endo's perspective — only fuels Endo's mixed emotions. He wasn't trying to surprise him. Aside from the occasional treat or small gifts, Endo doesn't tend to spring the unexpected on him. But since he did — and since this is big — there's a part of him that wishes Takiishi would have more of a reaction.
That's a thought he immediately shoves down, because it's irrational. He doesn't want to make Takiishi angry or unhappy, no matter what, so it doesn't make sense that he'd want more from him.
He smiles for the first time since Takiishi's arrival. ]
Yeah, okay.
[ He wants Takiishi to be comfortable.
But as soon as Takiishi goes to do that, Endo returns to his bedroom, running a hand through his hair as he looks at Umemiya. ]
You should go.
[ This is all he says, immediately turning to go back to the kitchen to wait for Takiishi. It is not the way a submissive should be treating a Dominant. It's not the way someone should treat the person who just held him, making him feel secure and cared for in the ways he's wanted — but it feels like this is over.
He warned Umemiya. But Endo still feels like shit about it, just like he feels like shit for doing this in the first place. ]
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That's a thought he immediately shoves down, because it's irrational. He doesn't want to make Takiishi angry or unhappy, no matter what, so it doesn't make sense that he'd want more from him.
He smiles for the first time since Takiishi's arrival. ]
Yeah, okay.
[ He wants Takiishi to be comfortable.
But as soon as Takiishi goes to do that, Endo returns to his bedroom, running a hand through his hair as he looks at Umemiya. ]
You should go.
[ This is all he says, immediately turning to go back to the kitchen to wait for Takiishi. It is not the way a submissive should be treating a Dominant. It's not the way someone should treat the person who just held him, making him feel secure and cared for in the ways he's wanted — but it feels like this is over.
He warned Umemiya. But Endo still feels like shit about it, just like he feels like shit for doing this in the first place. ]