Takiishi doesn't leave often, but on the nights that he does, Endo finds himself restless. He wasn't like this before — if Takiishi disappeared for a while, Endo would simply carry on as normal until he came home — but ever since that night on the roof, it's been different. Takiishi is expanding his world, meeting new people, and spending entire nights with new "friends," while Endo feels stuck in place, languishing without his purpose, pining for Takiishi's return.
Nowadays, Endo spends these nights pestering someone into giving him attention. He usually picks Sakura, though sometimes he'll head out somewhere by himself, looking for a different form of company. Anything to distract himself — and force someone to look at him for a time.
Tonight, as he goes through his recent messages, he pauses at Umemiya's last check-in, which he left on read. Umemiya's another complication in everything that's been going on lately, and though Endo's gotten a little better about it, he still vacillates between wanting their arrangement and pushing it away. It's difficult for him to find a middle ground — and it's difficult to accept his needs — when Umemiya is giving him everything that Takiishi won't.
A significant part of him still deeply yearns for it to come from Takiishi.
But the part that wants it from Umemiya isn't small, either.
Endo lies on his couch and stares at the ceiling. They're overdue for another session, but he's been dragging on the wait, trying to be there for someone he isn't sure wants him anymore.
Without fanfare or preamble, with no hello or sorry I didn't get back to you, Endo texts: ]
@fromsprouts
Takiishi doesn't leave often, but on the nights that he does, Endo finds himself restless. He wasn't like this before — if Takiishi disappeared for a while, Endo would simply carry on as normal until he came home — but ever since that night on the roof, it's been different. Takiishi is expanding his world, meeting new people, and spending entire nights with new "friends," while Endo feels stuck in place, languishing without his purpose, pining for Takiishi's return.
Nowadays, Endo spends these nights pestering someone into giving him attention. He usually picks Sakura, though sometimes he'll head out somewhere by himself, looking for a different form of company. Anything to distract himself — and force someone to look at him for a time.
Tonight, as he goes through his recent messages, he pauses at Umemiya's last check-in, which he left on read. Umemiya's another complication in everything that's been going on lately, and though Endo's gotten a little better about it, he still vacillates between wanting their arrangement and pushing it away. It's difficult for him to find a middle ground — and it's difficult to accept his needs — when Umemiya is giving him everything that Takiishi won't.
A significant part of him still deeply yearns for it to come from Takiishi.
But the part that wants it from Umemiya isn't small, either.
Endo lies on his couch and stares at the ceiling. They're overdue for another session, but he's been dragging on the wait, trying to be there for someone he isn't sure wants him anymore.
Without fanfare or preamble, with no hello or sorry I didn't get back to you, Endo texts: ]
wanna come over