[Endo gives a smile that could light up an entire room and right away Accelerator knows he's said the wrong thing. He's torn between wanting to crawl into a hole to die and wanting to smash this entire hospital into rubble. Unfortunately for him, societal expectations mean he has to wrangle his feelings and he settles for scowling, cracking open his can of coffee and downing a large gulp. It's cold and bitter, and that's a comfort. The familiar taste of this exact brand (UCC Black Unsweetened, that's all he's been drinking for the past two weeks) helps settle his nerves.
It doesn't get rid of the mental image of Endo going out on dates with rich older women out of his head, but it helps.]
Tche.
[He isn't worried, is he? If Endo is running his own gang then he's clearly got some capability in handling people, especially people who might normally be difficult in some way. Banjo was a good indicator of that, along with the way the guy got into his head to bring his black wings out. But then on the other side of things, speaking of the wings.... this is also the idiot who looked like he would've embraced them if given the chance, no matter how obviously dangerous they are, so he isn't exactly responsible....
Endo's ability to judge situations is questionable. Accelerator isn't sure if that lack of ability extends to actual people. Should that even matter to him? He knows that he's a monster, so Endo's opinion of him doesn't change his view of himself. Beyond that, it shouldn't be any of his business when it comes to other people, so by that logic he shouldn't be worried. Despite that, there is still the niggling thought, the irritation of adults screwing around with the power dynamic for their own selfish whims. He's seen that far too many times outside the context of dating that he still feels skeptical. Surely dating can't change it that much?
Maybe he's overthinking all of this. His brain wants to start jumping to concepts like attachment theory, or better yet, nonlinear dynamics and he's pretty sure that trying to understand Endo's love life using mathematical models is a rabbit hole he should not go down. Even for someone who defines his reality through mathematical calculations that's kind of ridiculous.
He puts an elbow up on the arm of his chair, so that he can rest his forehead in his hand.]
What the fuck do you do if they start getting too attached? You can't expect adults who date kids to be emotionally stable people. What do they get out of the deal?
[All of that feels safe to ask, at least. There seems to be far too much potential for interpersonal drama to easily pop up he can't see how that kind of dating would be worthwhile. Of course his questions and skepticism may just be borne out of his own bias, finding all forms of interpersonal connections to be varying amounts of terrifying and exhausting, but still. He feels the need to ask.]
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It doesn't get rid of the mental image of Endo going out on dates with rich older women out of his head, but it helps.]
Tche.
[He isn't worried, is he? If Endo is running his own gang then he's clearly got some capability in handling people, especially people who might normally be difficult in some way. Banjo was a good indicator of that, along with the way the guy got into his head to bring his black wings out. But then on the other side of things, speaking of the wings.... this is also the idiot who looked like he would've embraced them if given the chance, no matter how obviously dangerous they are, so he isn't exactly responsible....
Endo's ability to judge situations is questionable. Accelerator isn't sure if that lack of ability extends to actual people. Should that even matter to him? He knows that he's a monster, so Endo's opinion of him doesn't change his view of himself. Beyond that, it shouldn't be any of his business when it comes to other people, so by that logic he shouldn't be worried. Despite that, there is still the niggling thought, the irritation of adults screwing around with the power dynamic for their own selfish whims. He's seen that far too many times outside the context of dating that he still feels skeptical. Surely dating can't change it that much?
Maybe he's overthinking all of this. His brain wants to start jumping to concepts like attachment theory, or better yet, nonlinear dynamics and he's pretty sure that trying to understand Endo's love life using mathematical models is a rabbit hole he should not go down. Even for someone who defines his reality through mathematical calculations that's kind of ridiculous.
He puts an elbow up on the arm of his chair, so that he can rest his forehead in his hand.]
What the fuck do you do if they start getting too attached? You can't expect adults who date kids to be emotionally stable people. What do they get out of the deal?
[All of that feels safe to ask, at least. There seems to be far too much potential for interpersonal drama to easily pop up he can't see how that kind of dating would be worthwhile. Of course his questions and skepticism may just be borne out of his own bias, finding all forms of interpersonal connections to be varying amounts of terrifying and exhausting, but still. He feels the need to ask.]